01/10/17
I have considered making a blog for a long time now, because I feel like I may have something to contribute to the world. I have not gone through with it until now because I tend to be a very private person, and the things I write about tend to be very private things. They aren't unique things, though - strange, sometimes, but not unique. It has helped me to find the logs and writings of people whom I have strange things in common with, so maybe it will help somebody else to know that I am here. If I make no other contribution, maybe that will be worthwhile.
I am a person in a multiple system. I am not the host, nor can I easily pass as the host, which makes socialization rather difficult for me. The desire to interact with people has motivated me to dip my toes in a few communities online, where I have learned that I am not very good at chatting. I'm better at rambling letters and journal entries. I have frequent thoughts and little crises about how much I am "allowed" to exist, being what I am - what disclaimers I need to place on myself, whether it's safe for me to interact with people, how much of a footprint I am permitted to leave on the world. I try to focus instead on what I am willing to do, because that tends to be both much easier to get a handle on and much more immediately relevant than what is "allowed."
I am interested in gardening, embroidery, and making food. I play Guild Wars 2 and Animal Crossing: New Leaf, although they're both a bit neglected right now. I have spiritual beliefs, which are a subject for another time, if I decide I want to talk about them at all. I think the world is beautiful.
I don't know what I'll write about here. I may not write about anything. Maybe I'll forget about it entirely. But I'd like to write here, even if it's just quotes from my journal. I'd like to think someone is interested in what I have to say.